March 25 1998 – Sept. 11 2008


I think it must have been more than arthritis.  I think he must have had a stroke, maybe more than one over the past few weeks.  I don’t know.

What I do know is that yesterday he went outside and then he was never able to get up to come back in.  He tried.  He really tried.  And I tried to help him.  I lifted, I hoisted, I got his entire front half off the ground, but he couldn’t get the back half to do anything.

McH is out of town on business, and I just couldn’t get him in the house by myself.  I feel like I failed him.  So he died outside, alone, in the middle of the night.  And he is still there, at the north end of my house, in the mulch bed by a bush.  I’m not exactly sure what to do right now.

31 thoughts on “March 25 1998 – Sept. 11 2008

  1. Oh, sweetheart- I’m so very sorry. Bless your heart- why does this stuff always seem to happen when we’re without our spouses? That’s how it always goes around here, too. You’ll be in my thoughts today, friend. Hang in there.


  2. LilolaDenvers

    I’m so sorry, that even makes me sad. And what a gorgeous dog he was.
    This is the time to call your home teachers and/or your bishop for help. Unless there is a pet cemetery in the area that you want to use, you’ll have a nice memorial garden on that beautiful property.
    And maybe call the Relief Society to get a few meals carried in.


  3. Oh sweetie! I am so sorry. What a wonderful friend he was to your family. You did your best for him. He knows that. Please don’t beat yourself up about what you couldn’t do. Do as Lolila suggested and call your church leaders and see if there is someone who can come help you. I’ll be thinking of you today.


  4. Oh my gosh, Elaine. I wish I was there to help you or tell you what to do next. I’m so sorry McH can’t be home with you right now. I’ll be praying for you and your kiddos today.


  5. Oh, Elaine. I’m so, so sorry. Please don’t be hard on yourself. We all die alone, even if someone is there with us. I’m sure he knew how much he was loved. Bless his sweet, sweet soul.


  6. Christina

    Oh Elaine, I am so so sorry. What an awful way to lose your dog. You know, my Happy loves to sleep in the mulch bed. It drives me crazy, she comes in covered in bark. So maybe your dog wasn’t so sad laying out in the mulch bed – maybe it was comfy and peaceful and he could see the stars as he went to sleep for the last time.
    If there’s really no one you can call for help maybe you can cover him with an old blanket until McHusband comes home?


  7. Oh my gosh, I’m so so sorry. I agree with Chris, I bet he died in peace under the stars in a comfy spot for him. Sniff. Man, husbands are always out of town at the worst possible time. I’m so so sorry. how are the kids handling the loss of their doggy?


  8. Dianna

    YOU made me cry and Christina’s post made me cry harder. I’m so sorry about your beautiful dog. Treat yourself gently over the next few days.


  9. I’ve never met you, but I’m shedding tears for your loss.
    We say in our house that dogs are “love wrapped up in fur.” I can tell that you loved your beautiful dog very much.
    I’m so sorry you have to go through this.


  10. I don’t know what to say except that I’m so sorry for your loss. It’s terrible to loose a member of your family like that. I hope you can call on Church family and friends for help. I will keep your family in my prayers.


  11. Colleen

    Oh my, I am so so sorry. I know how it feels to see a pet die alone. I lost my Casper a couple of months ago in the middle of the night while I was at my mothers house. You did all you could do. He is not in pain now and in spirit, he is with the family that loves him, not outside.



  12. metaphase

    Oh, I just read…I am feeling sad for you and your family. Why does Frap like this happen when we’re alone? Sending {{hugs}} to you and the kids


  13. Tara

    Sorry I am getting to this so late, but I wanted to also send my condolences to you and your family. You are in our thoughts.


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